Friday, January 22, 2010

Will it ever end?

So I decided that I need to Blog at least once a week if not twice. I am always on facebook, but there really isn't space to really write 'whats on you mind'. I also have decided that this blog is just not for the girls, but for me too.

Bethie is starting to be so sassy that I wonder if it will ever end. When she talks to me its as if she is 16 and I am really having a hard time with that. I could understand if she was 16, but she is 5. There are times when she and I are having a conversation and she reminds me of her dad. Always trying to argue with me and make sure that she ends up winning the conversation or making her point well known. Urrrrrrr!!!! I have enough reminders of him, I don't need that coming from my 5-year-old. Don't get me wrong...I love my Bethie, but come on! Any advice would be great!

Sunday, January 17, 2010

I wasn't sure what to title this so I just started typing. Before the divorce, I babysat to get extra money. Bethie wasn't sure, at first, that having to share mom with someone else was a good idea, but now becuase of that she has a great friend. Even when Brooklyn came along the two of them didn't mind having to share me with her. I never really saw them when they were together and they played so good! Well, life happens and things change. Ever since the divorce, Bethie has had the hardest time dealing with the loss of friends. She is constantly reminding me how much she miss her life in Bountiful, the friends that she had, and even the people that just influenced her life. I have struggled for weeks with her and this constant conversation. The nights she cries to me about how much she wants to be back in that life. You know how they say when your kids hurt so do you? Well it is so true. I hurt that she hurts, I cry when she cries, and I know with all my heart how she feels. Instead of just trying to let it go, I decided (with the help of some great and awesome friends) that that needed to end. I need to let Bethie live in that life and not just remember it. So, Thursday I called and arranged for a great friend to come down to our house and spend the day. Bethie was soooo excited that I don't think she slept much that night. So from now no this is going to be a monthly or bi-monthly thing for her. She needs that in her life and I can't not give her that!
Here is a little slide of how that day went:

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