I just don't know......

why this week has been sooo bad! I have been the crankiest person in the whole wide world. I just don't know what the heck is going on. One minute I want to cry and go to bed and the other I am dropping words that I don't ever use and am just hateful. I am not sure what to even say to people and if you talk to me, my tone of voice just might bite your head off (don't believe me ask my parents especially my mom). We are going on almost 6 wks where PJ hasn't come and taken Bethie and hell forget Brooklyn...he doesn't even ask about her! Work has been really hard, not because of work related stuff, but because my child attends the same school and has issues! Brooklyn has been sick and I missed three full days of work just to take her to the dr. office to get a shot because she refused to take her meds. and was getting sicker. I am tired of let down and really don't know how to handle it, why is it so easy for men to get back in the dating field? Three months after things ended with the divorce and that, PJ is shacked up with some girl. Wait, some woman and her two teenage kids. let alone the other young adults that don't live with her. What is that all about?
I might say I am sorry to all of you who read this, but I'm not! This is how it has been for about two weeks and...................................................................................

Just FYI

Here are a few things that I thought you all might want to know:

1. Never flush the toilet without the lid being down....all the fecal matter back splashes about 20 feet when you flush it!

2. Don't leave you toothbrush out on the counter because of the back splashes from flushing the toilet...ewww imagine brushing your teeth with all that crap on it!

3. Along with not leaving you toothbrush out on the counter, don't leave it where the hair brush is...you might start brushing your teeth and gag because the hair is tangled all around the bristles.

4. Never Ever Never use Fructis products...they give your hair flakes!!!!

5. Always remember to brush your teeth..you never know who you might run into!

6. Don't forget the dictionary while typing a new post on your blog!!!!!

Was I crazy or what!!!

So when PJ and I were married we kind of had this Saturday tradition of going out to breakfast and then running errands. It was one of my most favorite things to do on the weekend. When we got divorced, I really missed it. So, I have tried to do the same with the girls now that we are on our own. Saturday we got up and headed out before Bethie left to go to her dad's for the weekend. We went and got Bethie's hair cut...that was ok. Then I asked "What about breakfast?" Bethie replies with "Ihoppers!" OMH are you serious.....well I quess it is worth a shot. So off we went. It wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be, but then Brooklyn started to scream. Bethie wanted some dumb paper that Brooklyn had and when she took it Brooklyn screamed! It seemed like the whole entire restraunt turned and looked directly at us! I turned to Brooklyn and whispered in her ear: "Brooklyn this is not a place where we scream." She whispers back: "K mommy!" and that was the end. Bethie got her paper back and we started looking for sight words and putting circles around them. Brooklyn started dumping salt on the table and licking it with her fingers...at least she was quiet. It was one of those moments that as long as they are quiet and engaged in something, I really didn't care. We got our food and things were great. We ate and as soon as I got the check...we were GONE! Needless to say this will be an event that I will never forget.

For all of u who read my posts...........JT is home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Will it ever end?

So I decided that I need to Blog at least once a week if not twice. I am always on facebook, but there really isn't space to really write 'whats on you mind'. I also have decided that this blog is just not for the girls, but for me too.

Bethie is starting to be so sassy that I wonder if it will ever end. When she talks to me its as if she is 16 and I am really having a hard time with that. I could understand if she was 16, but she is 5. There are times when she and I are having a conversation and she reminds me of her dad. Always trying to argue with me and make sure that she ends up winning the conversation or making her point well known. Urrrrrrr!!!! I have enough reminders of him, I don't need that coming from my 5-year-old. Don't get me wrong...I love my Bethie, but come on! Any advice would be great!

I wasn't sure what to title this so I just started typing. Before the divorce, I babysat to get extra money. Bethie wasn't sure, at first, that having to share mom with someone else was a good idea, but now becuase of that she has a great friend. Even when Brooklyn came along the two of them didn't mind having to share me with her. I never really saw them when they were together and they played so good! Well, life happens and things change. Ever since the divorce, Bethie has had the hardest time dealing with the loss of friends. She is constantly reminding me how much she miss her life in Bountiful, the friends that she had, and even the people that just influenced her life. I have struggled for weeks with her and this constant conversation. The nights she cries to me about how much she wants to be back in that life. You know how they say when your kids hurt so do you? Well it is so true. I hurt that she hurts, I cry when she cries, and I know with all my heart how she feels. Instead of just trying to let it go, I decided (with the help of some great and awesome friends) that that needed to end. I need to let Bethie live in that life and not just remember it. So, Thursday I called and arranged for a great friend to come down to our house and spend the day. Bethie was soooo excited that I don't think she slept much that night. So from now no this is going to be a monthly or bi-monthly thing for her. She needs that in her life and I can't not give her that!
Here is a little slide of how that day went:

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Christmas 2009

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